Sherene Hong

I've been waiting whole day for your reply.

"you everyday msg not sian meh?"

This what you replied after my hours of waiting.

I am really breaking down soon.

All these is too much for me to take.

You know there's no way i could leave you behind just like that.

You know i cant simply tell you that i don't love you anymore.

So much obstacles we've been through together,but why are we stuck at this?

Why can't we continue and go through it together?

Why did you choose to give up halfway and leave me all alone here.

I can't go through all these on my own,i cant make it on my own.

I need you to be here with me.

All I wanted was you to be there for me all these while.

Every morning, when I wake up I wish you were right beside me.

Everytime I check my phone, I long to see your message.

A simple, " Have you eaten?" Would have brighten up my day.

Sometimes in the middle of the night.. I woke up startled,

Remembering that you are not here with me.

No longer able to be in your arms.

All I could do at night, was to cry myself to sleep.

There is no way to cure this insomia.

Maybe there is,

and that is to be in your arms once again.

When I'm walking back home from 515, I always pray hard

that I'll see your bike under my block.

And you, waiting for me.

I prayed, I wished and I hoped.

But it never seem to happen.

Everytime I wanna tell someone about it,

I'm tongue- tied.

Maybe it's because of the fact that they're not in my shoes.

They wouldn't understand.

Hence, this caused me to be close to breakdown.

I know one day, I may not be as strong as I seem to be right now.

If all that I did, couldn't bring you back.

I'm willing to do anything, anything..

Just for you to be back.

Lost and insecure.

You've found me.

But you've lost me halfway.

Or to be specific, I'm the one who lost you.

You're like a little angel.

You brought me out of the maze I'm in.

But it seems that it's time for you to go back to God.

And you leave me alone,

once again, in this maze.

Which I couldn't get out without you.

Feeling scared, I wished and I prayed to God.

I prayed to Him, asking for you to be back.

To bring me out of the maze and never leave me.

I told Him, I'm willing to sacrifice anything.

Just for that little angel to be back.

Sometimes I found myself wondering: If it had been the other way round.

If I'm the one to run in and then out of your life.

Would I have invaded your thoughts in the months that followed?